Phobias (selachophobia)

I had a dream about being in the water with a shark(again). I'm afraid of big fishes, especially sharks, and my fears of being near them when I'm alone still lingers. Unlike some other people with selachophobia, I'm not afraid of getting in the water(most of the times). I can go inside the water in a river, a pool, or the beach. That is when I'm with other people, I've never been in the water by myself for a long period of time because as soon as I think of a shark I need to get out of the water. But, for some weird reason, this doesn't really happen in open water. Yes, I still think a shark might come and bite me, but it is not as great as when I'm in the pool(weird!). Sometimes I'll see a shadow in the pool, or will look inside the water and I freak out.
My fear of big fishes starter with the movie, "Moby Dick", "Orca: The Killer Whale", and "Jaws". After watching those movies I couldn't sleep by myself. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and ran to my grandparents room. I couldn't [and can't] bear being close to a tv monitor, or a computer monitor if there's a shark on it. There was this time, when I was twelve, I was using the computer wanted to change the screen saver and one of them was a shark, so i selected that one, as soon as the shark screen saver went on and ran. And for some reason I love sharks too. Discovery channel has a month dedicated to shark and I love to watch it. If they film the shark to close I change the channel. I don't know why I do this to myself, Ilove the thing I fear.
Sharks are very interesting animals, they're amazing. Sometimes I'll look them up online, but I can't stand to look at them with they mouth open. So, i'll usually ask someone else to come with me and that makes it less scary.
I have a couple of other phobia as well, but sharks would have to be my biggest phobia. I wanted to post a pic on this blog about my phobia, but guess what? I'm afraid I might find a picture of a shark!